urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lionhill ..it'll all seem all right." Sasha 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lionhill:69505 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z Over Now - Alice in Chains I snagged a million memes from <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_dyingtosay' lj:user='dyingtosay' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://dyingtosay.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://dyingtosay.livejournal.com/'><b>dyingtosay</b></a></span> but then I deleted them because who cares anyway. <br /><br />I've been feeling very philosophical today. I think it was after I read <a href="http://2-gryphon.livejournal.com/207307.html">a post</a> <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_schnee' lj:user='schnee' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://schnee.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://schnee.livejournal.com/'><b>schnee</b></a></span> linked in his journal. It made me think. Not about death, as such, but just life in general and what I have accomplished in my time thus far. I came to the conclusion that I'm pretty content. I may not have the perfect body, I may not always have the greatest temper, sometimes I'm a bit too egoistical, sometimes I hold grudges for too long and I'm not good enough at loving myself, but. But. I'm generous, I care to the deepest depths of my heart for those that are important, I'm generally nice to everyone, and I think most importantly of all, I'm <i>myself</i>. <br />I don't compromise the important things. <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><ul type="circle"><br /><li>being shitfaced with my friends</li><br /><li>when my boyfriend smiles</li><br /><li>the smell of Autumn</li><br /><li>songs like <i>Rebellion (Lies)</i> by Arcade Fire that remind me of the first time I went to Hove. It's a special kind of heartache</li><br /><li>TV shows like Extreme Makeover Home Edition. Call it media pornography if you will, it makes me happy to see those families cry</li><br /><li><a href="http://www.givesmehope.com">Givesmehope</a></li><br /><li>songs like <i>Ocean Avenue</i> by Yellowcard that remind me of all the fun I had with my friends when I was younger</li><br /><li>reading books</li><br /><li>being out in the middle of warm summer nights</li><br /><li><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xw7TZKhFAKw">this youtube-clip</a></li><br /><li>dancing in mirrored dancing studios</li><br /><li>finding out that someone likes a thing that you like</li><br /><li>waking up early in weekends, realizing that I can sleep a bit more and pulling my comforter over my eyes to shut out the sunlight</li><br /><li>feeling the wind in deserted places</li><br /><li>the smell of ocean</li><br /><li>stargazing</li><br /><li>geekspasming over things like taking the train through Dawlish</li><br /><li>English</li><br /><li>hugs</li><br /><li>discovering music that I have on my iPod but that I've never listened properly to</li>&lt;<br /><li>songs like <i>Everything's Magic</i> by Angels & Airwaves, because everything is magic sometimes and it never fails to cheer me up</li><br /><li>realizing that I write too much about music and not really caring because that is one of the important things I'm not willing to compromise</li><br /></ul>