To change the world,
Start with one step.
However small,
The first step is hardest of all.

Oh my. I got through the first rounds in the UWC deal, and I'm expected for the interviews. I don't know whether I should be happy or worried. I was sort of hoping I wasn't going to be accepted because holy smucks, I do not want to make the decision between Katta and UWC. There's still a problem with the whole deal, though; I'm in Moscow when the interviews are (probably) scheduled. Oops. Oh well, my mom has absolute confidence in it going well, and she said she's gonna get on a plane and get me from Moscow herself if it becomes necessary.

From now on, I'm going to have little nicknames for my romantic interests (and maybe I'll start doing that with people I don't mention on a regular basis as well), as it's confusing to write "my crush" and switch between versions of that since I think it looks monotone to write the same thing all the time. The names might not make sense for those of you who know the persons themselves, but all the better. That way, if the person it's regarding ever by any chance stumbles over my journal, they mightn't get it. Yusssss.

Mr. Box is still messing my head up, but it's getting better, I think. I hope. I still catch myself in looking just a little too much at his arms adkjsaf;ad or being just a little too curious as to where he is but otherwise than that I am managing. Yay go me!

Yesterday, I went shopping with my grandmother and acquired a ton of awesome clothes (though no new shoes, which was what we were looking for). Amongst those were a sweater with the middle print on the second row, which is really cool. Also pants in 8 sizes smaller than I normally wear (wtf, Criminal Damage?) and a ton of nice tees. Can't wait 'til I get to wear it all :D I'm all colorful and not-black these days, weird. Where have what I saw myself as before gone?

Also, regarding grandma-shopping: I am beyond spoilt, and I am aware of it. Please do not think that I'm not grateful, materialistic or shallow because of this. I am, I think, a lot less materialistic than people who have less money that I know of, because I've realised that money doesn't necessarily equal happiness. It makes it easier to obtain, of course, but it's not Insta-Happy. I need to spend more time with my gran, too, I read this article about the way elderly are treated when it comes to health care and homes and such, and I was thoroughly horrified. I knew it was bad, but that bad? I need to go visit my great-gran too, she's in the hospital because she broke her clavicle and refused to go to the hospital for ten days. She can be a real nightmare, I admire my mom for doing so much for her.

Then I went to bake some Shrovetide buns with android_queen and bokhylle. I was nice and yummy and I was really nauseated afterwards. You know how you eat too much of something, then you get nauseated and you swear you can't have another bite or you'll blow, and then ten minutes afterwards the nausea has passed, so you take another one and the nausea crashes over you like a wave five times worse than the last one? Maybe you don't but that was how it was for me. Around 7 we went to Julie's house and just hung about there until late and it was nice because I'd missed her. I love how I got a tightly knit gang of friends that I know will last for a loooong, looong time. Ily guys ♥

I think I need a new layout, this one has some really minor things that annoy me. Also need a header change. Hm. Oh well, no time for that today, Elias (aka the american) is coming over in 25 minutes and I haven't even dressed properly yet, nor have I cleaned my room as I said I would. Dang.

I'm not sure what I feel about weekends. I do nothing substantial and I always miss the people from school. Haha, whatta geek. The sun was out yesterday, and it makes me happy. I changed my default (lj user="circusacts") because I need a new start now that Spring is coming up. Maybe I'll change it, maybe I won't. We'll see.

Need to go shower now, my head looks like a hobo's nest.