Bah, it's what you make of it.
Purely and entirely.
Crushes are a pleasant thing altogether but I'm a pretty big romantic so even the more unpleasant parts are like a beautiful miracle to me. Nothing beats that feeling when your heart flutters and you forget what you were just thinking ♥

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I just wrote a long and emo entry about how sick I am of crushing on people, but you know what? Fuck it. Emcy's right. I am only to blame if this goes badly. Well, okay, 50% to blame, but I have a responsibility here. I have to stop being stuck in the silly pattern I always return to when I crush on someone. Like, now. I have to stop obsessing and craving attention and just chill out a bit. I've drawn a salomon on my hand to remind myself that I need to relax (if you don't speak Norwegian, don't expect to get this). I have to get to terms with me feeling like this being inevitable, and just let myself go with the flow for once. I have to get my head out of my butt, as it were. It's not like those bad feelings go away, but I can try and make something positive out of them and learn something new about myself. I am sick of being my pessimistic, self-loathing self, and I am going to try to do something about it. Starting today.

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

- Use Somebody; Kings of Leon

Damned great song, fits me right now. I like how it's negative and positive at the same time. Funny thing about me & music is that lately I've been really really picky about what I listen to, but if I find a song that I like I will play it over and over and over again. Circus by Britney Spears, We Walk by The Ting Tings and Desolation Row by My Chemical Romance (WHICH BY THE WAY IS SO FUCKING AWESOME I COULDN'T BREATHE WHEN I HEARD IT FIRST. I miss that band) have been thoroughly played through.

And then there's Oasis in a couple of hours. It will be smashing, I'm certain.

[edit] Thank you to you who bear this, and especially those of you who have to live through me talking until I am sure you want to gauge your ears out with a spoon in Real Life. I am so grateful for having someone to rant/talk/flail to. Really ♥