1. My Russian teacher is possibly the coolest teacher I have ever ever ever had.
2. I still like my class..
3. .. but I feel really stupid, and it's heartbreaking. I've always been good at school, now what do I do? I'm afraid to get bad grades, but I'm more afraid of feeling this. It's not a feeling I'm used to, it's hurting me, I can feel it like a heartache. I'm afraid it'll end up with me doing something stupid.

[edit] Fuck Marilyn Manson and his music for making me cry. *goes to silently dissolve in a corner*

[edit #2] I think I need to talk to some of my friends, but it's so trivial, it's not really a problem. I shouldn't be having issues with this, I love my school. I don't want to bother them with this. Tiril's gonna call me in 15 minutes or so, since we haven't spoken face-to-face in three or four days. I don't want her to hear I've cried. I need to get a hold of myself.

I feel really lonely.

[edit #3] Goo Goo Dolls are magic - I put on some and they, if not cheer me up, at least work as a tranquilizer.